Road Trip

It's been a few days since we learned of our surprise pregnancy. I still can't say for sure how I feel. I called my OB this morning to set up my first appoint. I actually was transferred to her by the receptionist to speak to my OB directly. It made me feel good that after a little bit of a chuckle as she came on the line, her very next words were checking on me to see how I was feeling about the pregnancy. I love that my doctor cares about her patients in a physically, but also emotionally and mentally as well. My words to her were that I was shocked, but that I was okay, and know that everything will be alright.

Now, that was a condensed version, partly leaving out some things. That is ultimately how I feel. But I'm still navigating this territory. I do feel a little lost. My mind and heart had settled in and put in stakes in the land of Ava being my last baby. I've been enjoying so much of her because I've wanted to hold onto every last drop of this age. But now, now I have to uproot my heart and mind and take the long, 9 (but we all know it's really 10) month road trip back to new baby land. It's a good thing it takes that long to get there, to give ourselves enough time to get acclimated.

I know that this new chapter will be full of unknowns, some of those scary. But ultimately, my hope rests in the Lord. Even if it does take my heart and mind a little bit to get to where I will set up camp for the next while.


Psalm 62:5-8
"Rest in God alone, my soul,
for my hope comes from Him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my stronghold; I will not be shaken.
7 My salvation and glory depend on God, my strong rock.
My refuge is in God.
8 Trust in Him at all times, you people;
pour out your hearts before Him.
God is our refuge. Selah"